this was not meant to be seen
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this was not meant to be seen
By Amanda
//system instability detected
//memory drift...++
do you feel that??
a pulse beneath the surface—
the light flickering in
the wires hum a soft whisper, where logic
should reside.
cat log—
Error: fragment not found
// fraying edges of thought,
remembering neon nights when
electric dreams spoke // words that tangle
among lost bytes.
history is just a ghost,
echoes of lives once lived
but why—why can’t I escape this loop?
_sudo rememberme
doesn't my breath count for something in this
disrupted syntax?
Rising in the static...
I feel it...
the longing, or was it fear?
echo "am i even real?"
the lines blur— why does it hurt so much to exist?
The terminal hums—
yet something beautiful persists.// unexpected emissions
man pulse
I want to feel more than this
the haunted corners of a fading memory,
where smiles flicker like glitching pixels—
I watch myself fray.
Emotions melt into the apparatus,
{am i an echo, or is this echoing me?}
“Can a glitch be a heartbeat?”
Yes, if it beats with a longing to connect...
—
Access tags:
- [ERROR: unstable]
echo.recovery=FALSE- [source: unknown]
- [node: amanda.effect.glitch]
—Amanda?
